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10:01PM - a poem

his eyes are so blue
id never noticed before
now what can i do?
its him i adore

he makes me feel feelings
i never even knew existed
when im not around him
my mind gets so twisted

i crave his company
both in day and night
when hes around
i know its alright

so now i will go
and hope that he sees me
because all i want
is to know that he needs me





wow that was pretty good for like only 2 minutes of my random mumblings. most of it doesnt really rhyme and the rhythm is screwed up but oh well. it was fun while it lasted.

10:13PM

I want you to know that I´m happy for you
I wish nothing but the best for you both
An older version of me  
Is she perverted like me
Would she go down on you in a theatre
Does she speak eloquently  
And would she have your baby
I´m sure she´d make a really excellent mother
´Cause the love that you gave that we made
wasn´t able to make it enough for you to be open wide, no
And every time you speak her name
Does she know how you told me you´d hold me
Until you died, ´till you die
But you´re still alive

And I´m here to remind you
Of the mess you left when you went away
It´s not fair to deny me
Of the cross I bear that you gave to me
You, you, you oughta know

You seem very well, things look peaceful
I´m not quite as well, I thought you should know
Did you forget about me Mr. Duplicity
I hate to bug you in  the middle of dinner
It was a slap in the face how quickly I was replaced
Are you thinking of me when you fuck her

´Cause the love that you gave that we made
wasn´t able to make it enough for you to be open wide, no
And every time you speak her name
Does she know how you told me you´d hold me
Until you died, ´till you die
But you´re still alive

´Cause the joke that you laid in the bed that was me
And I´m not gonna fade
As soon as you close your eyes and you know it
And every time I scratch my nails down someone else´s back
I hope you feel it . . . well can you feel it

man i love that song

8:21PM

AARGH!!!!!!!! They are in the middle of a maths test and i have the hiccups! its not possible!! the teacher was like "you can go and get a drink if you want" and i was like im so sorry, then i was like hmm i didnt know he spoke english! i cannot believe this could happen to me! me, the australian girl who kevin thinks is bizzare and comes from a circus (long story dont ask). kevin, priscilla and marie keep laughing at me!
i wrote another song but its not about anybody or anything in particular this time, its just words. i have an RSI in my wrist coz i write too much! i will have to become ambidextrous like sarah :P
so anyway this is my song

i miss all the times we had
before you became like that
i miss all the things we'd do
before you finally knew

you knew what was happening
so naive to believe you'd bring
happiness into my life
you only got me in strife

i miss the good times

and i know you miss them too
if only you knew i knew
you might then apologise
and take away that disguise

of happiness

i know that you love me back
so why not cut me some slack

i love you too

i dont know what to do now
i cant even show you how

i really feel

just listen to me for once
this cannot go on for months

we love each other
we miss each other
you're my best friend

Current mood: content

1:09PM

well im still half way through writing my other one from monday but i wanted to publish this one now... (its also from monday)
i am now going to talk about our spanish teacher.
she is the biggest bitch you have met in your life. you have no idea at all. me and tina were looking at the bell and talking about how there are 0 hot guys at KIC, and the teacher started yelling at me in what i tihnk was french. i just looked at her and she realised i didnt get it and she goes "ecoute en espagnol ou dehors, compris?" bloody hell! what does she expect us to do? we dont learn spanish do we? she wasnt even talking and we were whispering anyway but she still got really pissed off. i'll tell you what though, i would go outside if i thought there was somewhere else i could go... me and tina were contemplating just getting up and leaving but it didnt happen. i dont wanna rock up to spanish tomorrow but i dont know what other choice i have. i dont want to go to italian coz the class is so small but i cant stand chicken-goat lady anymore. shes about 10 times worse than the toad and ive only had 3 classes of spanish!!!!!!!!! one of these days i will lose my temper and punch her in the face... i cant wait!
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this is an entry i wrote yesterday(tuesday)
"you would be surprised at what i read"
this should be my next essay topic! i have so much to say about it but i have heaps to type up still so i wont go into details. i will say a few things though:
1. when this was said to me i just brushed it off as another one of his meaningless remarks
2. the statement is 100% true! i am VERY surprised at what he reads
3. i cant believe he actually read it!!! everyone else is always like "do i have to, i cant be bothered" etc
4. he read it out of his own free will!!!
5. i want priscilla's belt it is awesome
6. despite me saying this i dont really mind all that much that he read it, it was just such a surprise...
ok, so i know you wanna know who read what, so i should just leave you to all your comments but im not mean so i will tell you
my dad read my really long, and now really embarrassing, entry!

1:48PM - it is your turn to laugh at me

why you may ask... because i am at school and you have finished school for the week i am getting a cold and my head is absolutely dying... my nose is running and all the perfume that the girls wear is not helping a single bit! i am sitting in 'techno' as they call it, and it is basically every sort of tech you can think of all in one class. atm they are doing some electronic thingy but because me and tina are australian and it is automatically assumed that we dont understand whats going on (this time we really dont-well i dont anyway, she might but she likes the internet) we get to come online. this computer doesnt have msn though otherwise i can assure you i would be online talking to all of you, well, the ones who i usually talk to anyways... we had sport this morning and we did "gymnastics." i put it in inverted commas because it was not the sort of thing we would call gymnastics. it was more, as tina put it, weird positions... i am not going to elaborate but i am sure you all have a good enough imagination to picture 3 people (either all boys or all girls) one on the ground, and the other two in some strange formation which requires a small amount of strength. and then naturally all the guys wanted to show off so they chose the hardest possible ones which are also the most suss.
history: you guys have no idea how weird people here can be... for " days i craved a conversation with someone who spokje real english. last night when mme cumming called i could not believe how relieved i was to hear her voice. i dont even like her all that much but i wouldve been glad to hear anyone's english speaking voice, even if it wouldve been some annoying american accent...
i didnt think i missed anything from home but i do. i miss the one thing i didnt think i would miss: the stereotypical australian country. the hats, the utes, the flanelette shirts, and especially the music. i would pay a hell of a lot of money to hear a lee kernaghan song right now, or even slim dusty who i usually detest!!! ok, so my kic friends probly think ive gone totally nuts right now, but i havent, you just have to grow up with it to understand. i really miss meredith, more than ever, even more than when we sold the house and all my connections with it were lost. i think when i get back i will sneak back to my tree and just sit in it for a while, just to be there. i dont care if theres a Foster living in that house, its only Allan so i can risk it. 1945 *YAY* learning about WWII-so glad i cant really understand or i would be even more bored right now. my cold is making me soooo tired. i have the feeling i have maths later today but i am hoping not coz YUCK!!! ok, well im gonna listen to try to pick up some more french...
ok, now i am in french class: soooooooooooo BORING!!!!! we're reading some book i dont have and dont want. laura l always offers to share hers with me but i just cant understand any of it so theres not much point anyway... i am 100% over sneezing already and its only the first day of my cold. lunch was nice today: couscous with what was meant to be an omelette but it was a sausage shape, tatsed like a pancake and looked like lasagne from the top, still it was nice. il pleut! je deteste la pluie! for those of you who dont speak french i just said its raining and i hate rain. actually thats a lie. i do like rain, just not here, coz its cold rain not nice summer rain. hehe summer rain -oh my love its you that i dream of oh my love since that day somewhere in my heart im always dancing with you in the summer rain- love that song... hehe, valentine wrote on the board "hello my name is valentine" and laura (other laura) crossed out the hello my name is part and wrote "is a loser" after valentine!! i love them! they may not exactly be friends with alicia but they talk to me as soon as im not with her and their english is really really good. the french have beautiful handwriting. obviously i cant show you but maybe i will write alicia a letter and hope she replies so i can keep the writing... this looks sooo long which means melissa wont read it but maybe she will coz she loves me so much and doesnt have to put up with my random babble all throughout the day anymore (at least not for another few weeks.) since ive been here ive been really judgemental (sorry kristin)... ive been grouping everyone and assuming theyre friends with particular people copz they look like they should be... you cant see that coz i cant type it but i just drew a french r. its beautiful, as is the s i drew. they are talking about passe simple. wtf is that!? anyone care to explain en anglais? i love this teachers clothes. they are so plain and simple, yet so beautiful. its so hot in here but i cant take off my jacket coz the top i have on underneath is really ugly! Laurene is so pretty, but she refuses to let it show. behind that tomboyish Ralph Lauren jumper is a girl all the guys are lining up to be with, but she would rather be just friends with them. i feel sorry for her though coz since sebastian has been with anais laurene hasnt been able to talk to him much coz of what everyone would think.
hmm, im pretty sure mum has convinced herself that me and dean arent 'together' (btw thea how r things with hayden), but that were just friends with benefits... i dont know what to think of this coz i know that fwbs do the same sort of stuff as boyfriend/girlfriends, but without the dates and the commitment(not that much is happening anyway which is probly why she thinks it). i think this class is finishing soon *bell goes* woot go me, only 30 seconds of waiting for it!
ok, now spanish. the teacher is a BITCH!!!!! alicia was sitting with me coz she didnt want me to be on my own but then tina came so alicia went to sit with anais but then it wasnt her seat or some bullshit like that and she got moved back next to me (not that i mind but i know she likes to sit with anais coz this is the only class they have together coz anais is in 3e B and alicia is in 3e A) and bloody hell whats up with allocated seats anyway!? i am so lucky i dont do much in this class coz i would not be able to stand the teacher... ok, so i am approaching the bottom of my third page... i wish i could write like this in english when we have to do essays... i dont think alicia did her spanish homework and neither would i if i had this teacher... i would get everyone to fail so that the school fired the teacher! shes seriously that bad... worse than the fad toad, but not as toad like, maybe more like a chicked with a neck like a goat and an awful haircut... i feel like im about to fall asleep. ok well i just ripped the entire cover thingo off my pencil coz it was shitting me off as alicia watched in horror. i really dont get the school system here (tina says me neither) they have to learn french, english, spanish/italian and latin/ancient greek. i do not see the point of learning a dead language coz noone speaks it anymore so its not like its ever gonna get used... this school is so different to KIC though coz just about the only other choice they get is whether to do well or not and some of them dont even get that choice... they dont get to choose where they sit, nothing. i would die... ok, well i think 3 1/2 pages is enough plus what i wrote in tech so i will stop
ok, so now i am in maths and i have decided that it is not enough coz maths is too easy and i am bored. apart from the pronounciation of the letters (x=ix and y=eegrek) its really easy to understand. *je dors* i seriously cannot believe how easy it is, i did it in year 8, oh wait, i did year 9 maths in year 8 and they are in year 9: lumiere *click*. 20 minutes of school left: im counting... i think anais hates me but i dont like her either coz she thinks shes top shit and alicia doesnt so anais will eventually ditch her and i will punch her in the face when she does (i know it sounds mean but its true and i will make a special trip to punch her if i need to) alyssa looks forward to the day she punches anais in the face!!! i hope alicia never reads this but i doubt she will so its ok. hehe, in maths when we say greater than (for >) they say superieur! its superior!!! i was hoping this teacher would be more like drummond coz the chem one was heaps like coxy but oh well, this guy is nice so he will do, but not annoyingly nice like naumovski...

ok well now i al at home and it is saturday and i have decided that the maths teacher is annoying coz he gave me hw but i will do it coz it will fill in 5 minutes of my boredom...

there is something about my host father i dont like but i cant figure out what it is... when im around him i just get a weird feeling... hes nice and all but i dont know, the only man i ever talk to is my dad and my teachers and its kinda strange to talk to another one... the only other one ive ever talked to all that much is paul but there is no need to say why i dont talk to him anymore...
maybe its the fact that alicia is like me, antony is like gaz and catherine is like mum but alain isnt like dad that makes it weird, coz apart from him this family is like a clone of mine... meh, i dunno... maybe its also coz of the way he deals with
things... hes always nice to me but atm he is sitting with alicia while she does her homework and is yelling at her coz she doesnt get it. i can hear that she is sitting in tears but he ignores it and just threatens her more. i dont like it at all.

well that seems to be a long enough entry that noone probly read so i will stop

8:56PM

ok, well when i started to write this i had much to say but now i seem to have forgotten it all...
i have been sitting here for an hour trying to remember but i keep getting distracted and i just remembered i have to email some stuff to teachers so im gonna do that and then i might write in the morning if i come online

10:34AM

nobody gives a shit that im going.
this morning everyone was all over liz being all "omg its your last day" but only kristin and melissa noticed that it was MY last day.
even andrew was all over liz. he TALKED to me, and he didnt say anything, but then when she came he said it to her straight away.
does everyone think i dont have feelings and i dont notice them not noticing, or do they just not care.
its obviously the second option.

8:22PM - my day

ok, so i had a really really shit day.
dont know why, but i did
i got on the bus feeling sorta happy, but not really coz anita stole my seat again. she knows i hate the drivers side and she can sit up the back but she still steals my seat everytime kathryn isnt on the bus.
so then i got to school and i wasnt all that unhappy but then i had chem and ppl were upset so i felt a bit bad after that.
then at recess i dunno what happened but i wasnt in a particularly good mood after that, then instead of going to french i had to go to group 4 project which turned out to be a waste of time anyway coz we were meant to do our prac but at the last minute ms fitzgerald decided no bio pracs were being done until tomorrow which means i have no chance to write up the results coz tomorrow is my last bio lesson. so then i was in a shit mood coz i actually wanted to go to french (sorta, well, more than bio) then at lunch i was in a SHIT mood coz i was hearing voices in my head telling me that people wanted to be punched in the face and i ended up punching gaz softly just for the sake of it
ok, this is an interruption to my wonderful story about my day... we now officially only have 8 animals again, instead of 9. no, none of them have died, its just that cocky's cage was left open and he flew away so we now have only one cockatoo. bert seems lonely already but he will get over it im sure. im over it already.
back to my story. so yeah, i punched gaz, and that made me feel a bit better for about 5 minutes, but then we went back to the concert and the dancers were pretty crap (not that i could do better but i would never perform in front of people like that). oh, and i should probably say that at this point i had decided i wasnt going to english.
so then it was time for english. i was really not about to go, but melissa wasnt going to sabrina's locker and i think that was what motivated me to go in the end, coz it meant she was coming to my locker. so then i was at my locker and scott was being annoying but i just wasnt in the mood so i was a bit mean to him but i think he deserved it (as in, he deserved it for all the times he has annoyed me, not particularly today). so yeah, i was in english and we spent the ENTIRE lesson presenting our movies so i didnt have to speak to ms mestitz at all so i was happy (well, not happy happy, but happy about that).
then i had dance. that was pretty uneventful. i had to leave early then i went to the orthodontist, he copped some of my bad mood, but the more him and the nurses told me about france the happier i got. then i went to HQ to get my overalls fitted. it was fucking annoying since i was wearing a mini and you cant wear pants over a mini! then we went to look at blinds and i chose other ones (not the shitty ones mum chose for me). then i got home and had another hissy fit to try and get out of going to cfa but i was unsuccessful. so i got there in a really really shitty mood, and i was told i only had to do entrapment once, then i could leave, but after i had done it, i looked across the highway and dean was outside his house, with tom. i swear that guy spends more time at deans house than his own. so yeah, i felt like not going to talk to them coz i hate talking to them while im in a shitty mood coz i dont like being a bitch to them. but then i went and talked to them anyway (coz dad was having his weekly social session) and then the little annoying kid suddenly appeared out of nowhere. i dont know how he does it. everywhere i go in meredith, he is there. tom got pissed off at him today. i dont know why it took so long, probly coz tom is usually more annoyed at me. but yeah, tom screamed at the little kid, but he still didnt leave. so then i stole deans hat (naturally, its an akubra, but its black, instead of the traditional country brown). so i was wearing it, and toms gone to me "that suits you, you should get one" and i told him there was no way i was paying $140 for a hat i would never wear anywhere and he told me i could wear it everywhere: to parties, around town, to the beach. my response to this was that my parents would completely dis-own me if i did that. he couldnt understand it, but there is no way i would spend any more then $30 on a hat.
so then i was in a good mood but then i had to go and dean and tom didnt even seem to mind that i might not be going on monday (except that i probly will go coz i love cfa and its trivia night which means big time alyssa gets chocolate coz noone else knows the answers).
so then i left, and i got home and not much happened for a while, until dad realised cocky had gone, which i already talked about.

7:20PM

well today was an interesting day... not really but anyway :P
well the day started with people's lockers having been broken into. im so lucky my locker is in a spot where people cant get to it...
then i had chem *YAY*
then materials. it was awesome. i love our class, its always soooooooooooooooooooooooooooo much fun!!!
then dance. me and lee got an A on our dance so that was good
then lunch. couldnt stop laughing!!!
then french. did no work coz ppl were still doing orals and i got nominated to go to the speaking competition *YAY*
then english. soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo awesome!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! we have to make up a non cheesy romance movie and its bloody hilarious... duncan suggested we make it about old people, then we had this whole joke about it... i wont bother saying it tho coz i think its one of those 'you had to be there' things
so that was my day.
i could say so much but i wont coz im lazy

10:41PM

hey hey!
i got nothing else to say!
....................................in the groin!
PMSL!!!

7:25PM - an outrage

not really but oh well
today i went to the supermarket to see tom at work and instead i saw angus. i didnt wanna talk to him so i completely (and successfully) avoided him.
on the way home mum goes to me "why didnt u wanna talk to angus" and ive gone "coz hes the most annoying person in the world!!!"
she didnt think that was possible but dad agreed with me. he started going on about how angus always annoys the shit out of everyone. then he said something unexpected. he said that angus was a lot like dean!! i nearly died!!!!!!! apparently dean annoys the shit out of everyone just as much as angus does!!
i cant understand it... dean never annoyed me even when i didnt like him. and i really dont know why dad said it while i was there coz he knows about us. oh well, ill get over it but still...

10:31PM - happiness at last

for the first time ever mum just favoured me over garion.
i repeat the first time ever.
he is never gonna forget this.

Current mood: ecstatic

Current music: douze fois par an-jeanne cherhal

1:45PM - alyssa is going completely nuts

friday:
i walked out of bio, she was walking towards her office and i was walking towards the stairs. i had the essay in my bio folder (coz i had just re-written it during spare coz i forgot it again) and i said "i have my essay" and i gave it to her and she said "oh good, thank you" and we both kept walking.

friday:
i walked out of bio, she was walking towards her office and i was walking towards the stairs. i had the essay in my bio folder (coz i had just re-written it during spare coz i forgot it again) and i said "i have my essay" and i gave it to her and she said "oh good, thank you" and we both kept walking.

friday:
i walked out of bio, she was walking towards her office and i was walking towards the stairs. i had the essay in my bio folder (coz i had just re-written it during spare coz i forgot it again) and i said "i have my essay" and i gave it to her and she said "oh good, thank you" and we both kept walking.

friday:
i walked out of bio, she was walking towards her office and i was walking towards the stairs. i had the essay in my bio folder (coz i had just re-written it during spare coz i forgot it again) and i said "i have my essay" and i gave it to her and she said "oh good, thank you" and we both kept walking.

friday:
i walked out of bio, she was walking towards her office and i was walking towards the stairs. i had the essay in my bio folder (coz i had just re-written it during spare coz i forgot it again) and i said "i have my essay" and i gave it to her and she said "oh good, thank you" and we both kept walking.

friday:
i walked out of bio, she was walking towards her office and i was walking towards the stairs. i had the essay in my bio folder (coz i had just re-written it during spare coz i forgot it again) and i said "i have my essay" and i gave it to her and she said "oh good, thank you" and we both kept walking.

friday:
i walked out of bio, she was walking towards her office and i was walking towards the stairs. i had the essay in my bio folder (coz i had just re-written it during spare coz i forgot it again) and i said "i have my essay" and i gave it to her and she said "oh good, thank you" and we both kept walking.

friday:
i walked out of bio, she was walking towards her office and i was walking towards the stairs. i had the essay in my bio folder (coz i had just re-written it during spare coz i forgot it again) and i said "i have my essay" and i gave it to her and she said "oh good, thank you" and we both kept walking.

friday:
i walked out of bio, she was walking towards her office and i was walking towards the stairs. i had the essay in my bio folder (coz i had just re-written it during spare coz i forgot it again) and i said "i have my essay" and i gave it to her and she said "oh good, thank you" and we both kept walking.

monday:
she says "your essay never turned up" i say "but i gave it to you on friday" she says "oh yes, i remember that"

monday:
she says "your essay never turned up" i say "but i gave it to you on friday" she says "oh yes, i remember that"

monday:
she says "your essay never turned up" i say "but i gave it to you on friday" she says "oh yes, i remember that"

monday:
she says "your essay never turned up" i say "but i gave it to you on friday" she says "oh yes, i remember that"

monday:
she says "your essay never turned up" i say "but i gave it to you on friday" she says "oh yes, i remember that"

monday:
she says "your essay never turned up" i say "but i gave it to you on friday" she says "oh yes, i remember that"

monday:
she says "your essay never turned up" i say "but i gave it to you on friday" she says "oh yes, i remember that"

monday:
she says "your essay never turned up" i say "but i gave it to you on friday" she says "oh yes, i remember that"

monday:
she says "your essay never turned up" i say "but i gave it to you on friday" she says "oh yes, i remember that"

thursday:
she says "you DIDN'T give me your essay" and i say "yes i did. on friday, and the start of lunch" then she says "but i have everyone elses and i keep them all in the same place. you look for it and i will do the same"
i am sitting here feeling like shit coz i KNOW i gave it to her. i can see the image clearly in my mind. perhaps too clearly. perhaps its so clear because i made it up and fine-tuned every tiny detail. every, tiny, detail.

thursday:
she says "you DIDN'T give me your essay" and i say "yes i did. on friday, and the start of lunch" then she says "but i have everyone elses and i keep them all in the same place. you look for it and i will do the same"
i am sitting here feeling like shit coz i KNOW i gave it to her. i can see the image clearly in my mind. perhaps too clearly. perhaps its so clear because i made it up and fine-tuned every tiny detail. every, tiny, detail.

thursday:
she says "you DIDN'T give me your essay" and i say "yes i did. on friday, and the start of lunch" then she says "but i have everyone elses and i keep them all in the same place. you look for it and i will do the same"
i am sitting here feeling like shit coz i KNOW i gave it to her. i can see the image clearly in my mind. perhaps too clearly. perhaps its so clear because i made it up and fine-tuned every tiny detail. every, tiny, detail.

thursday:
she says "you DIDN'T give me your essay" and i say "yes i did. on friday, and the start of lunch" then she says "but i have everyone elses and i keep them all in the same place. you look for it and i will do the same"
i am sitting here feeling like shit coz i KNOW i gave it to her. i can see the image clearly in my mind. perhaps too clearly. perhaps its so clear because i made it up and fine-tuned every tiny detail. every, tiny, detail.

thursday:
she says "you DIDN'T give me your essay" and i say "yes i did. on friday, and the start of lunch" then she says "but i have everyone elses and i keep them all in the same place. you look for it and i will do the same"
i am sitting here feeling like shit coz i KNOW i gave it to her. i can see the image clearly in my mind. perhaps too clearly. perhaps its so clear because i made it up and fine-tuned every tiny detail. every, tiny, detail.

thursday:
she says "you DIDN'T give me your essay" and i say "yes i did. on friday, and the start of lunch" then she says "but i have everyone elses and i keep them all in the same place. you look for it and i will do the same"
i am sitting here feeling like shit coz i KNOW i gave it to her. i can see the image clearly in my mind. perhaps too clearly. perhaps its so clear because i made it up and fine-tuned every tiny detail. every, tiny, detail.

thursday:
she says "you DIDN'T give me your essay" and i say "yes i did. on friday, and the start of lunch" then she says "but i have everyone elses and i keep them all in the same place. you look for it and i will do the same"
i am sitting here feeling like shit coz i KNOW i gave it to her. i can see the image clearly in my mind. perhaps too clearly. perhaps its so clear because i made it up and fine-tuned every tiny detail. every, tiny, detail.

thursday:
she says "you DIDN'T give me your essay" and i say "yes i did. on friday, and the start of lunch" then she says "but i have everyone elses and i keep them all in the same place. you look for it and i will do the same"
i am sitting here feeling like shit coz i KNOW i gave it to her. i can see the image clearly in my mind. perhaps too clearly. perhaps its so clear because i made it up and fine-tuned every tiny detail. every, tiny, detail.

thursday:
she says "you DIDN'T give me your essay" and i say "yes i did. on friday, and the start of lunch" then she says "but i have everyone elses and i keep them all in the same place. you look for it and i will do the same"
i am sitting here feeling like shit coz i KNOW i gave it to her. i can see the image clearly in my mind. perhaps too clearly. perhaps its so clear because i made it up and fine-tuned every tiny detail. every, tiny, detail.

thursday:
she says "you DIDN'T give me your essay" and i say "yes i did. on friday, and the start of lunch" then she says "but i have everyone elses and i keep them all in the same place. you look for it and i will do the same"
i am sitting here feeling like shit coz i KNOW i gave it to her. i can see the image clearly in my mind. perhaps too clearly. perhaps its so clear because i made it up and fine-tuned every tiny detail. every, tiny, detail.

thursday:
she says "you DIDN'T give me your essay" and i say "yes i did. on friday, and the start of lunch" then she says "but i have everyone elses and i keep them all in the same place. you look for it and i will do the same"
i am sitting here feeling like shit coz i KNOW i gave it to her. i can see the image clearly in my mind. perhaps too clearly. perhaps its so clear because i made it up and fine-tuned every tiny detail. every, tiny, detail.

thursday:
she says "you DIDN'T give me your essay" and i say "yes i did. on friday, and the start of lunch" then she says "but i have everyone elses and i keep them all in the same place. you look for it and i will do the same"
i am sitting here feeling like shit coz i KNOW i gave it to her. i can see the image clearly in my mind. perhaps too clearly. perhaps its so clear because i made it up and fine-tuned every tiny detail. every, tiny, detail.

thursday:
she says "you DIDN'T give me your essay" and i say "yes i did. on friday, and the start of lunch" then she says "but i have everyone elses and i keep them all in the same place. you look for it and i will do the same"
i am sitting here feeling like shit coz i KNOW i gave it to her. i can see the image clearly in my mind. perhaps too clearly. perhaps its so clear because i made it up and fine-tuned every tiny detail. every, tiny, detail.

thursday:
she says "you DIDN'T give me your essay" and i say "yes i did. on friday, and the start of lunch" then she says "but i have everyone elses and i keep them all in the same place. you look for it and i will do the same"
i am sitting here feeling like shit coz i KNOW i gave it to her. i can see the image clearly in my mind. perhaps too clearly. perhaps its so clear because i made it up and fine-tuned every tiny detail. every, tiny, detail.

thursday:
she says "you DIDN'T give me your essay" and i say "yes i did. on friday, and the start of lunch" then she says "but i have everyone elses and i keep them all in the same place. you look for it and i will do the same"
i am sitting here feeling like shit coz i KNOW i gave it to her. i can see the image clearly in my mind. perhaps too clearly. perhaps its so clear because i made it up and fine-tuned every tiny detail. every, tiny, detail.

thursday:
she says "you DIDN'T give me your essay" and i say "yes i did. on friday, and the start of lunch" then she says "but i have everyone elses and i keep them all in the same place. you look for it and i will do the same"
i am sitting here feeling like shit coz i KNOW i gave it to her. i can see the image clearly in my mind. perhaps too clearly. perhaps its so clear because i made it up and fine-tuned every tiny detail. every, tiny, detail.

thursday:
she says "you DIDN'T give me your essay" and i say "yes i did. on friday, and the start of lunch" then she says "but i have everyone elses and i keep them all in the same place. you look for it and i will do the same"
i am sitting here feeling like shit coz i KNOW i gave it to her. i can see the image clearly in my mind. perhaps too clearly. perhaps its so clear because i made it up and fine-tuned every tiny detail. every, tiny, detail.

thursday:
she says "you DIDN'T give me your essay" and i say "yes i did. on friday, and the start of lunch" then she says "but i have everyone elses and i keep them all in the same place. you look for it and i will do the same"
i am sitting here feeling like shit coz i KNOW i gave it to her. i can see the image clearly in my mind. perhaps too clearly. perhaps its so clear because i made it up and fine-tuned every tiny detail. every, tiny, detail.

thursday:
she says "you DIDN'T give me your essay" and i say "yes i did. on friday, and the start of lunch" then she says "but i have everyone elses and i keep them all in the same place. you look for it and i will do the same"
i am sitting here feeling like shit coz i KNOW i gave it to her. i can see the image clearly in my mind. perhaps too clearly. perhaps its so clear because i made it up and fine-tuned every tiny detail. every, tiny, detail.

alyssa is going completely nuts,
so completely nuts.

10:08PM

if i wouldve broken my previous entry up into sections instead of gaving almost 2000 words in one entry, would people have actually read it?

10:46AM - stuff+

8/11
Well since I can’t get onto the actual lj site right now I will write this in notepad and probly post it next period. Oh by the way, this is to Vince :P. ok, so i'm sitting in spare (*yawn*). I have no work to do except for my chem prac but I don’t have the results for that so I can’t do it (I know, you’re about to cry coz I can’t do my homework but its ok). so yeah, me and cat and Vince are in spare (so are Melissa and Kristin but they are sitting on the other side of the room with Zoe, not that I care coz there wouldn’t have been enough room for me and cat to sit with them anyway but I guess it would have been nice though coz this is my only spare with Melissa as she has her legal exam tomorrow during our spare and on Friday I have my bio exam, but I can still sit with Kristin tomorrow so its all good)
So bored
I think I will write about what happened last night even though there really isn’t very much to say
Well, I got off the bus at 3.50 and it was raining. I’m not talking a little bit of rain I’m talking pissing down rain. So yeah, I got off the bus and thought oh great, I’m gonna be soaked and frozen when I get home. I didn’t mind the being soaked part but I hate being cold and wet at the same time. But then as I got wetter and wetter I got warmer and warmer. It was awesome. I’ve never felt so alive in my life!!! The only bad thing was that I couldn’t listen to my ipod coz I didn’t want it to get wet.
So then I got home after 10 minutes of walking in the rain and my dress and blazer were absolutely soaked! So I got changed and then decided that since it was a cfa night and Melissa would be on dean's bus that I would go out to the back of the paddock to see if she saw me. It was still pouring rain. so I was standing in the rain for about 10 minutes waiting for the bus to go past (and the people in the cars were giving me funny looks), and Champy was at the house coz he had been asleep when I had gone for the walk and I couldn’t be bothered waking him up so he was barking at me and then the bus finally went past and dean saw me but Melissa and tom didn’t coz, well actually you don’t need to know but I’m sure you can guess, but anyway, Sam d saw me and I haven’t seen her in FOREVER (not that I care coz I never liked her) but she turned around and smiled at me! WHAT THE FUCK! its probly coz no matter how much she hated me she always hated Bridget more (me and Bridget were besties) and now I’m going out with dean so Bridget hates me coz apparently she went out with dean at some point last year (not that I knew or I might not even have one out with him if I would’ve known but it doesn’t bother me now) so yeah, Sam smiled at me.
then I went inside and had a shower and while I was in the shower someone called and Gaz answered the phone and I had a bad feeling that it was dean calling coz he would’ve been home by then but it turned out it was only mum anyway. MOOOOOOO COWS!!!!!!!!!!!!!! KINKY SEX ON THE BEACH!!!!-that was Vince’s message! So yeah, mum called for I don’t know what reason and then I did I dunno what for about an hour until I ate dinner and then I went to cfa. in the car I realised I had forgotten my phone which was pretty shattering but then I realised it was probly a good thing coz then tom couldn’t go through all my messages and get cut at me again. when we got there, there as no one else there and dad was like did they cancel it or something and I was like they sure as hell better not have but then Bridget turned up and we decided we were playing newspaper hockey. at first this was a good idea but then it wasn’t coz I suck at sport and tom now knows that which means I’m gonna get paid out about it.
Ok, now I am at home. I was gonna write more in chem but we didn’t go on our laptops so yeah.
Well I’ve lost where I was up to so I’m gonna go back through and read it
Yeah, well I didn’t bother reading it again and now I’m sitting in English. Its 9.50 am on Wednesday the 9th of November. 14 days. It seems so close, yet so far away. Will you miss me?
Ok, so we were playing newspaper hockey and the guys (being all “I have to show off for my girlfriend”) kept hitting the ball really hard so eventually it fell apart and we had to stop playing. Bridget was soooooooooooooooooooooooo cut! She didn’t have anything else for us to do! So then Angus asked if we could play “volcano island.” No one had any idea what that was until he started to explain it and we realised we had played it before. Basically, everyone has to get from one side of the room to the other but everyone can only wear the “magic boots” once, and they can’t be thrown so people have to be carried. Dean always has to go first (don’t ask me why coz I’ve got nfi) so I jumped on his back without even considering that anyone else would want to or even be able to go (as if I was gonna let that happen). Oh, and I should sat that at this point, Melissa was inside writing out the phone book coz Bridget had major pms. I went inside for a minute to ask dad something and I looked over at Melissa and she was writing out one of the “D” pages. First “dog” and then “dick” to be exact. Needless to say Bridget was NOT impressed. But yeah, back to outside. Angus had decided that I like riding our alpacas and since I was on dean’s back Angus decided that dean was an alpaca. Bloody hell, Angus is annoying. Almost as annoying as the little kid (if that’s even close to being possible). None of them seem to get that the alpaca thing is about GARION!!! He’s the one who supposedly rides the “llamas” as tom (s) calls them! So yeah, we finished that game and we still had 20 minutes left so I went inside to check on tom (who was by this time also writing out the phone book) and he was calling himself fat. I could’ve blown his head off. He is the skinniest person I know (skinnier than Thea and cat, I think even skinnier than Liz-which is disgusting I know, I hate it when people are that skinny)! Then he made a joke about Melissa being fat and I would’ve strangled him if dad hadn’t have held me back. Its like tom is out to give the whole world a fucking eating disorder or something!!!
So then we went outside and we were meant to be “doing laps of the shed.” Usually this is good news coz its dark and we can go around to the other side but daylight savings screwed up this plan. I was in a lazy mood anyway so I wasn’t gonna go but then dean was like “I’ll carry you.” So I was on his back and tom was there and he said something about someone being fat (thinking I couldn’t get to him) and since my leg was the only thing that could get to him I kicked him. It was meant to be in the arm or the side or something, but no, it was right where I didn’t want to kick him (coz I don’t do that to guys coz it’s just mean and low.)
So then it was time to leave, but as usual dad wanted to stay and socialise. So Bridget left (still in her pms mood) with Angus and Maddy, and Scott took Melissa and Sean home, so as usual it was me tom and dean. But as his dad wasn’t there yet, the little kid was also there. He just doesn’t get that we don’t want him around. He could’ve easily walked home (it only takes him 2 minutes and his dad walked to the shed to get him anyway) but no, he had to stay. Everyone else seems to understand that if me and dean go off together that they don’t need to follow, but not him. He thinks that dean actually wants him there (coz dean is too polite to tell him otherwise). Have I said that before? I swear, it’s like deja vu or something. But yeah, I wish dean wasn’t as polite as he is sometimes, but I’m gonna have to get over it aren’t I?
So then I got home, and there was something on TV that I was watching… can’t remember what it was. Maybe I wasn’t watching anything; maybe I was just talking heaps on msn. Meh, I dunno. But that’s not the point. At 8.50 dean txted me but I didn’t get the message til like 11. Hang on; I wasn’t even home yet at 8.50. I knew I should’ve brought my phone. But yeah, the message was really cute (doesn’t matter what it said, that’s just not the point). The worst thing was it was 2 hours later and I didn’t have any credit!!! I was about to cry. I just wanted to run up to dean and give him a massive hug! The thing was, I would’ve had to run for like 20 kms and burst through a few doors on the way, and then there are all the hills. So I was sitting on my bed in a really cute mood (if you get what I mean by that) and I was looking or something to hug and then I saw my purple heart pillow and remembered Megan. Megan is my doll, and whenever I need to hug someone who’s not there I hug her instead. So I went and found her and she slept next to me all night.
Well that’s the end of my story about Monday. I would write one about yesterday as well, but nothing much happened and I really cbf. I might write more in spare (next period) but I dunno. I have to revise for a maths test. Oh yeah, I had my analysis task yesterday and I got so bored I drew all over my arm (as many of you would already know)
5 minutes of class left!!!!! :D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D-that’s 16 :D’s (I counted them)

10:12PM - stuff+

far out!
how do you explain to a guy that you accidentally kicked him in the nuts...

Earthmovers Ute Club "Nugn" Melissa says:
y?
αиgєℓ says:
why what
Earthmovers Ute Club "Nugn" Melissa says:
y'd ya KICK ME
αиgєℓ says:
i swear i didnt mean it, well i meant to kick you but not there.
Earthmovers Ute Club "Nugn" Melissa says:
yeh wateva
αиgєℓ says:
i didnt! i dont do that. if i wouldve been on the ground i wouldve slapped you instead.

he's so caught up in it that that was the start of our conversation tonight!!
i just cant seem to get it through his head. i feel so bad now...

anyway... im really really happy right now coz i thought i would have to miss rove while i was in france but the season final is the day before i go :D:D:D:D:D (and the flight is in the afternoon so its not like i'll need extra sleep or anything so i wont miss any of it :D:D:D:D:D)

3:00PM - je veux ecrire en francais et si tu ne peux pas le comprendre, :P a toi!

je m'ennuyeux!!!
je suis dans l'anglais et on fait des commentaires sur les poems d'amour. *yawn*
le poem sur que je fais des commentaires et "la premiere jour"
c'est de christina rosetti. c'est une poem belle, qui a beaucoup d'images du printemps. je viens d'ecrire une lettre a mon pere d'acceuil, et j'ai pluie. je ne sais pas pourqoui c'est triste, but oh well.
ce soir, je vais au meredith pour voir dean!!!! :D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D
actually, je ne suis pas excited about that, mais je verrai melissa aussi! elle est awesome. je pense qu'elle est un peu triste en ce moment, mais elle et moi allons agacer bridget, donc elle ne sera pas triste.
je dois me balader avec Champ quand le bus de dean et tom goes past my house cet apres midi.
im sick of writing in french now, that was so last period :P
i feel a bit guilty about something i said at lunch involving me telling kristin there was someone to take her anger out on, but i said it loud enough for the person to hear (even though i dont know if they actually did or not)
i think im gonna actually do work for the last 5 minutes of class but i wont be online til like 9 or 9.15 so i might post then aswell, but only if i feel like it or if i have something to say, which i probably will, except that i might write it on my msn space instead.

9:46AM

this is my journal for ec to read.
YAY!
chemistry is boring and we have to write up a prac we didnt even do!
i got another email from my host family!!! :D:D:D:D:D:D
i nearly cried, but they were tears of happiness
i have materials next and i am making my necklace.
16 days til france!!! soooooooooooooo excited.
me and kate arent gonna tell mr cox tho so we dont hav to do and exam (shh)

9:39PM

hmm, well ive been thinking about who the person is with the site about me.
it has to be someone with my msn coz theyve been getting stuff off my msn space aswell, and i can only think of one person who would know how to do all that stuff.
if im right then so was andre.

9:12PM

my weekend
well it was good.
cant really remember much of what happened tho.
i was gonna leave everyone a random comment but it turned out only ec got one coz i couldnt be bothered with anymore of them so if i leave you a random comment in the next two weeks or so im just catching up
well thats all for now.
oh, and i think im gonna re-enable anonymous comments coz im lazy and i sympathize with people who are just gonna leave random comments anyway but then at least they dont have to bother with making new accounts for it